In all of the discipleship process ,Christ is central. The understanding that Christ took our place on the Cross in a selfless act should be central in how our development occurs and how we reflect a selfless driven life to others. Bonhoeffer described that any effort to hinder Jesus in this suffering is satanic, it is holding Christ back from becoming what He was supposed to be. The understanding that Jesus was rejected in this selfless act of suffering struck me to my core. Where have I been denying Jesus His rightful place as He suffered to take the rejection of God away from me? Also where am I denying the suffering I am supposed to take on in order to become what Christ has made me to be?
These questions have disturbed my view on becoming and making disciples for Christ. The full denial of self to me seems to be where I need to work in order to come to full freedom of self and freedom in Christ. Focusing fully on Christ in daily prayer, scripture and worldview is something I feel I need to become more aware of and focused on. Even in this pursuit, keeping the focus on God rather than my own desire to develop further can become counter productive. Letting go completely and just focusing on the one who goes before me is where I need to reorient my life daily. I find that I have bought into the fallacy that I need to know myself, rather than fully embracing and knowing only Christ. I can never know who I am or what I am to be unless I give up fully on the idea that I could ever know on my own or apart from Christ.
Embracing suffering is central to Bonhoeffer’s discussion as well on the Cross. Taking up the Cross as a follower means I bear suffering and not avoid it. Only through suffering could Christ become who He was called to be. How then could I ever believe that I was above Christ in that I should avoid suffering as well? As Christ prayed for the cup to pass over Him in Gethsemane, He came to understand by only drinking the cup fully, could He then pass from it. From Bonhoeffer’s statement I draw new hope, that only through bearing the suffering will it be able to pass. As Christ became the savior of all through His suffering, how much I can become in Him through the suffering I face in the world. This to me is true submission and a desire to fully embrace Christ by holding fast to him and fully denying the self I still try to cling to.
 Boneffer 85
 ibid 86
 ibid 89
 ibid 90